yeah..been having a lot of those lately..or this year.hm..just got back from an interview at bandar sunway.it went well..but i know that the lawyer who interviewed me was not very keen when he heard that i've never been to court on my own. YUP....NEVER been to COURT on my own. stupid kan? yup..i mean, i think i have the confidence and all..but my M have yet given me any opportunity to handle cases on my own. ala..at least hantar i g amik date baru ke JID ke etc..ok la jugak kan? ni never..
so..im feeling a bit down right now because i know i can do it. and i know if i go to other interviews i will get the same feedback.. "hah..u x pernah langsung g court? SAR? MAGISTRATE?" the answer in "No..NOPE..NOOOO".
yeah..so thats about it.my not so bright future. i wonder why i choose this shitty place to chamber in the first place...
owh..yeah, on my way out of bandar sunway, a car knocked my car~! wut could be worse kan? i was nearly in tears because i feel so down n worthless n now my car was hit from behind by a vios. but thankfully..nothing is kemek or wat..but still..
the conclusion that i can say about this morning is that : It does'nt matter how hard u study in the University or get good grades, being in the DEan's List or yada yada..the important part in being a lawyer is ur chambering period. it teaches u and gives u experience. soo...choose wisely la tempat chamber.thats all i can say :(
so..we'll see what the rest of the day have in store for me..yup..we'll see...
Looking at my not so bright future - Lili
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
Head ache + Heart ache
urghh..which one do u prefer?well..im sorta kinda feeling both of it right now. yesterday i again send out applications for LA in various legal firms. im afraid because nothing..no response so far. im afraid that there's no one out there is going to offer me a job. boleh x pikir camtu? well..my plan was right after final call, i will start a new job, some place new...but, at the rate im going...cam not going to happen je.. well, that xplains the heart ache.
head ache? so many work to do..2 affidavits in support and another 2 affidavits in reply just arrived late yesterday evening. The M wants a draft my next week, have to also attend a meeting next week to clarify facts with clients. hm..the workload ok la, i can do it. But the "bincang part" ughh~!! it will certainly take hours...n hours..n hours...looking at him amending the affidavit.sOoooo not looking forward to that.. but he promised to stop early everyday since its ramadhan.sooo..we'll see how that goes huh?
but..anyway, my mom was suspected H1N1 last monday and i almost had a heart attack. i mean not literally la..but when i got the news, i suddenly feel that my lungs is squzeed.i cannot breathe...i was really really worried. but..yesterday, the test came out negative. so alhamdulillah...i love u mama~!
nothing else to update.. maybe later ya?
check in later :) have a great weekend..
Happy Ramadhan everyone~!
head ache? so many work to do..2 affidavits in support and another 2 affidavits in reply just arrived late yesterday evening. The M wants a draft my next week, have to also attend a meeting next week to clarify facts with clients. hm..the workload ok la, i can do it. But the "bincang part" ughh~!! it will certainly take hours...n hours..n hours...looking at him amending the affidavit.sOoooo not looking forward to that.. but he promised to stop early everyday since its ramadhan.sooo..we'll see how that goes huh?
but..anyway, my mom was suspected H1N1 last monday and i almost had a heart attack. i mean not literally la..but when i got the news, i suddenly feel that my lungs is squzeed.i cannot breathe...i was really really worried. but..yesterday, the test came out negative. so alhamdulillah...i love u mama~!
nothing else to update.. maybe later ya?
check in later :) have a great weekend..
Happy Ramadhan everyone~!
Monday, August 17, 2009
doin it myself~!
well..after feeling down for a couple of days, i manage to push myself up a lil' bit :) yeah..i admit that it is expansive(the herbal life thinggy) yeah..when i think long and hard, its way to expensive to let another person be responsible ie: using my mom's credit card to buy it..so i conclude that when i start working, i will buy it using my own credit card~! heehee so fret not u guys~! hehe plus im chambering n i am so going to find another place to work. so..xtau lg my future cne.. afraid that i xdpt cari keje ke..(wah scary~!)
and yeah..in a way tkah (tq tkah..u made my day) is right. im a bit tired wif my life ie: stupid chambering. so..wanna start anew, fresh and someplace better i hope. so..still praying n praying..to find someplace good n pays better :) wish me luck
so..after the failure of herbalife (:P) my mom refer me to a doctor n he gave me something to reduce weight apart from me excercising. so..i hope to shed pounds within this 4 months..
so..been excercising n reducing my kalori intake. wish me luck~!
hm..the finding a job part..still no success..so..cant talk much about that.
current weight : 78kg (ughhh) ----> aiming my weight 3 years ago : 55 kg
can i do it? ok..i keep u updated k?
so..off to work~! hehehe check in later :)
i love u syg~!
and yeah..in a way tkah (tq tkah..u made my day) is right. im a bit tired wif my life ie: stupid chambering. so..wanna start anew, fresh and someplace better i hope. so..still praying n praying..to find someplace good n pays better :) wish me luck
so..after the failure of herbalife (:P) my mom refer me to a doctor n he gave me something to reduce weight apart from me excercising. so..i hope to shed pounds within this 4 months..
so..been excercising n reducing my kalori intake. wish me luck~!
hm..the finding a job part..still no success..so..cant talk much about that.
current weight : 78kg (ughhh) ----> aiming my weight 3 years ago : 55 kg
can i do it? ok..i keep u updated k?
so..off to work~! hehehe check in later :)
i love u syg~!
Friday, August 14, 2009
Down in the dumps
if u have been reading my blog, u would realize that in my last post, i talk about losing weight to look good for December blah blah blah.
yeah..i went to see an instructor for Herbalife and tried their shakes and it taste good.after listening to the coach i realize that hey..maybe i should try. the coach gave me a full body scan and i got the shock f my life. my inner fat level is very high.i have so much fat in my organs that anytime i could get cancer or heart attack. so..now its not about losing weight anymore. its for my health..its for my life. i dont want to get sick when i reached 30. i dont want to get cancer when i turn 35. i dont want to suffer menapouse early because i have so much inner fat. i want to take care of myself. u see...i am not at all embaress to share this information to the world because i know all this while i've been living in denial. i dont believe that i am THAT overweight.hey..people can be skinny but still they get heart problems and diebetes..its our body. if our body is not healthy..it does'nt matter if you are skinny or fat, u will still get sick.
i have a problem convincing my mom to use her credit card first and i will pay her everymonth..she believes that there will be interest etc. hm..i dont know. i dont know what to think..what to say..i dont know.
im scared of whats happening to my body..ive been feeling down since yesterday because yeah..i admit it. I AM SICK. i have to do something NOW. but i need a little help... Ya Allah..show me the way.its not about losing weight now.its now about being HEALTHY.. please...
yeah..i went to see an instructor for Herbalife and tried their shakes and it taste good.after listening to the coach i realize that hey..maybe i should try. the coach gave me a full body scan and i got the shock f my life. my inner fat level is very high.i have so much fat in my organs that anytime i could get cancer or heart attack. so..now its not about losing weight anymore. its for my health..its for my life. i dont want to get sick when i reached 30. i dont want to get cancer when i turn 35. i dont want to suffer menapouse early because i have so much inner fat. i want to take care of myself. u see...i am not at all embaress to share this information to the world because i know all this while i've been living in denial. i dont believe that i am THAT overweight.hey..people can be skinny but still they get heart problems and diebetes..its our body. if our body is not healthy..it does'nt matter if you are skinny or fat, u will still get sick.
i have a problem convincing my mom to use her credit card first and i will pay her everymonth..she believes that there will be interest etc. hm..i dont know. i dont know what to think..what to say..i dont know.
im scared of whats happening to my body..ive been feeling down since yesterday because yeah..i admit it. I AM SICK. i have to do something NOW. but i need a little help... Ya Allah..show me the way.its not about losing weight now.its now about being HEALTHY.. please...
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
cant wait :)
well..theres two reasons why i named this post "cant wait".
1. i want to lose weight
i have a big day this coming December and i want to look my best. i don't want to look frumpy and fat and awful.i want to be stunning and i want to have the ability to choose whatever i want to wear without worrying about the size and all...so.. i decided to do something. all this while I've been trying to cut down my food intake etc..but i FAILED miserably :(. but fret not everyone~! I'm calling in professional help and tomorrow i have an appointment with that person. i will tell u all about it in a few days after i get the answers. believe it or not..i think i am at my heaviest now, and its been a long time since i weight myself. so..tomorrow..well, I'm preparing for the worst tomorrow ie: being at my heaviest. but..I'm turning it all around and hope, come December i at least shed a few pounds and look good for the "thing" on December hehehe. so my Dear Lovely Readers, I'm asking for your support and lets pray that i can do this :) amin..
the sweet thing is.. Mr F never complains that I'm fat or whatever. he gets worried if i don't eat..when I'm on my crazy diet mood..i x eat much and he gets worried.hehehe gile sweet la Mr. F tu~! but..what I'm doing now is for myself and also for my future. i don't want to get caught up with a disease or having to go trough early menopause because of my weight. so..I'm stopping myself and i have to also stop living in denial.i look really fat in photos etc..so, Allah..give me strengh :)
2. December
i cant wait for december to come..long way to go but still cant wait~! by then i hope that i have a comfy job ie: that pays resonably and not hisap darah org~! lose weight and taking a big step in my life. i've actually been waiting for it for a long time now..and i still cant believe its happening. i hope everything will go smoothly. i look at my friends pictures of their big day..i get jelouse and xcited as i cant wait for mine. i cant image what mine would look like because theres no planning yet..but surely..after raya..it will be confirmed :) so..folks, just wait for the announcement :)
so.. jom BUAT KERJA :P
check in later n wish me luck~!
1. i want to lose weight
i have a big day this coming December and i want to look my best. i don't want to look frumpy and fat and awful.i want to be stunning and i want to have the ability to choose whatever i want to wear without worrying about the size and all...so.. i decided to do something. all this while I've been trying to cut down my food intake etc..but i FAILED miserably :(. but fret not everyone~! I'm calling in professional help and tomorrow i have an appointment with that person. i will tell u all about it in a few days after i get the answers. believe it or not..i think i am at my heaviest now, and its been a long time since i weight myself. so..tomorrow..well, I'm preparing for the worst tomorrow ie: being at my heaviest. but..I'm turning it all around and hope, come December i at least shed a few pounds and look good for the "thing" on December hehehe. so my Dear Lovely Readers, I'm asking for your support and lets pray that i can do this :) amin..
the sweet thing is.. Mr F never complains that I'm fat or whatever. he gets worried if i don't eat..when I'm on my crazy diet mood..i x eat much and he gets worried.hehehe gile sweet la Mr. F tu~! but..what I'm doing now is for myself and also for my future. i don't want to get caught up with a disease or having to go trough early menopause because of my weight. so..I'm stopping myself and i have to also stop living in denial.i look really fat in photos etc..so, Allah..give me strengh :)
2. December
i cant wait for december to come..long way to go but still cant wait~! by then i hope that i have a comfy job ie: that pays resonably and not hisap darah org~! lose weight and taking a big step in my life. i've actually been waiting for it for a long time now..and i still cant believe its happening. i hope everything will go smoothly. i look at my friends pictures of their big day..i get jelouse and xcited as i cant wait for mine. i cant image what mine would look like because theres no planning yet..but surely..after raya..it will be confirmed :) so..folks, just wait for the announcement :)
so.. jom BUAT KERJA :P
check in later n wish me luck~!
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
weekend galoreEeee
yeah..sounds like a did a whole lot of things kan? well..actually i must say that i had the GREATEST weekend ever~! apart from attending classes on saturday which ended early (yeayness!) i went to do a bit of window shopping with Mr F at Jusco and end up buying a blouse which is just rm25..cheap kan? i wanted to buy more..BUT..i need to save la..for december. at the rate im going..i hope i can at least save a few hundred. hm..i hope i can...
anyway.. on sunday i spend the whole day with Mr. F. we went to kg johan setia(which is jauh in the depts of klang) hehehe but we manage to find it and it was super duper HOT~!!! we arrived around 2 and the theme of the wedding is black and white. a bit dull..but ok la.very very simple...then, we decided to stop by Mr F's uncle house which is like just across the road..and end up spending the whole afternoon there. well.. it was ok..apart from me sneezing my head of f and having stomach cramps due to (dot..dot..dot).. i enjoyed it. i wish i could have been more talkative or something. but..well, its my first time and i hope i do better next time. Mr.F was really at home..siap tukar pakai kain pelekat lagi~! sabar je la! hehehe
his niece was very naughty and she was just running around in her underwear the whole time i was there...hehehe panas kot? and she was splashing in the pool and at one point she was trying to release her pet hamster for me to look at..i nearly had a heart attack~!!! i quickly told her that..its ok, i can see the hamster while its still in the cage.hehehe panic moment!
his big bro cooked for us..but i was already full and feeling really uncomfortable as i was really sneezing non-stop.after eating the meal his bro prepared, we went home. i was literally exaustead..so i called up alia and ask her to follow me home as i dont think i can drive anymore.. i was really tired~! i slept all the way home. TQ alia the lifesaver~!
well...thats all i guess. it was'nt much..but i like my weekend..not looking forward to next weekend ugh~! saturday i have full classes..n maybe a replacement class on sunday..aiyo malas malas..cepat la kau habis DLSA..i want my Weekends BACK~!!
ok.. check in later :) i love u sayang~!
anyway.. on sunday i spend the whole day with Mr. F. we went to kg johan setia(which is jauh in the depts of klang) hehehe but we manage to find it and it was super duper HOT~!!! we arrived around 2 and the theme of the wedding is black and white. a bit dull..but ok la.very very simple...then, we decided to stop by Mr F's uncle house which is like just across the road..and end up spending the whole afternoon there. well.. it was ok..apart from me sneezing my head of f and having stomach cramps due to (dot..dot..dot).. i enjoyed it. i wish i could have been more talkative or something. but..well, its my first time and i hope i do better next time. Mr.F was really at home..siap tukar pakai kain pelekat lagi~! sabar je la! hehehe
his niece was very naughty and she was just running around in her underwear the whole time i was there...hehehe panas kot? and she was splashing in the pool and at one point she was trying to release her pet hamster for me to look at..i nearly had a heart attack~!!! i quickly told her that..its ok, i can see the hamster while its still in the cage.hehehe panic moment!
his big bro cooked for us..but i was already full and feeling really uncomfortable as i was really sneezing non-stop.after eating the meal his bro prepared, we went home. i was literally exaustead..so i called up alia and ask her to follow me home as i dont think i can drive anymore.. i was really tired~! i slept all the way home. TQ alia the lifesaver~!
well...thats all i guess. it was'nt much..but i like my weekend..not looking forward to next weekend ugh~! saturday i have full classes..n maybe a replacement class on sunday..aiyo malas malas..cepat la kau habis DLSA..i want my Weekends BACK~!!
ok.. check in later :) i love u sayang~!
Monday, August 3, 2009
clock is ticking
YEAYYYYYYYyy~!!!
i've passed my ethics exam. but i was scolded by the BC people because i wrote the wrong petition number. Ya Allah, serious teruk aku ni. i remembered i was a little confused whether its 69 or 65. so...i wrote 69 n lalalalala..buat exam. and the penalty of wrong petition number is you FAIL the paper. i am sooOoooo stupid. bleh x i x check pon my num. soooooOOooo..i got scolded by the BC people. n i appologize profusely.sorry..sorry...im so sorry for the inconvinience i caused. siap org BC tu ckp dia kene investigate ala CSI...tgk handwritting, bukak my personal file blablablaa..
the thing is..number 69 came up twice.and sape yg 69 tu fail the ethics paper.so..i was sweating la...and after long and hard investgation...i PASSED yeayyyyyyyy..so..x kesah la kene sound ngan org BC pown. TQ BC for not failing me bcoz i wrote the wrong petition num~! ahahahahah boleh x?~!!! i am sooOooooo clumsy :P
owh yeah.. i got to know my good friend got engaged over the weekend! im happy for her..a bit terase she did'nt tell me she was getting engaged. i mean i know she's getting engaged but i dont really know the exact date. but...im happy for her. i hope that she'll be happy and get married and have children n enjoy living abroad...wahhhh best~! she's a really good fren and i wish her well... :)
my cousin also got engage on the same day as my fren..it was a simple ceremony.its nice to get the see the big family again :) congrats angah~!!
on sunday i spend the whole day helping my mom to hunt for her umrah things, settle the laundry,cook(as both of my little sisters are bz with work), wash dishes,basuh toilet,set table blablablabla...bole katekan i did a lot~! i sometimes wonder...when u are at home. xkan xterpk langsung nak tolong? ntah...xkan x terpk? ntah..series cam rase like bursting n marah~!!kalau setakat masak je watpe? tlg la kemas ke..sidai baju ke..lipat baju ke..org lain pon penat jugak. but..at the end of the day..i feel puas because i get to help my family.anggap je la ibadah.org lain xnak buat xpe..biar la this subject is taboo or whatever.wake up~!
so..i guess whatever la kan.
mama n ayah i love u~!!
check in later :)
i've passed my ethics exam. but i was scolded by the BC people because i wrote the wrong petition number. Ya Allah, serious teruk aku ni. i remembered i was a little confused whether its 69 or 65. so...i wrote 69 n lalalalala..buat exam. and the penalty of wrong petition number is you FAIL the paper. i am sooOoooo stupid. bleh x i x check pon my num. soooooOOooo..i got scolded by the BC people. n i appologize profusely.sorry..sorry...im so sorry for the inconvinience i caused. siap org BC tu ckp dia kene investigate ala CSI...tgk handwritting, bukak my personal file blablablaa..
the thing is..number 69 came up twice.and sape yg 69 tu fail the ethics paper.so..i was sweating la...and after long and hard investgation...i PASSED yeayyyyyyyy..so..x kesah la kene sound ngan org BC pown. TQ BC for not failing me bcoz i wrote the wrong petition num~! ahahahahah boleh x?~!!! i am sooOooooo clumsy :P
owh yeah.. i got to know my good friend got engaged over the weekend! im happy for her..a bit terase she did'nt tell me she was getting engaged. i mean i know she's getting engaged but i dont really know the exact date. but...im happy for her. i hope that she'll be happy and get married and have children n enjoy living abroad...wahhhh best~! she's a really good fren and i wish her well... :)
my cousin also got engage on the same day as my fren..it was a simple ceremony.its nice to get the see the big family again :) congrats angah~!!
on sunday i spend the whole day helping my mom to hunt for her umrah things, settle the laundry,cook(as both of my little sisters are bz with work), wash dishes,basuh toilet,set table blablablabla...bole katekan i did a lot~! i sometimes wonder...when u are at home. xkan xterpk langsung nak tolong? ntah...xkan x terpk? ntah..series cam rase like bursting n marah~!!kalau setakat masak je watpe? tlg la kemas ke..sidai baju ke..lipat baju ke..org lain pon penat jugak. but..at the end of the day..i feel puas because i get to help my family.anggap je la ibadah.org lain xnak buat xpe..biar la this subject is taboo or whatever.wake up~!
so..i guess whatever la kan.
mama n ayah i love u~!!
check in later :)
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