pray..

patience..

i pray and hope that Ayah would be fine and strong because i love u sooo much Ayah!

i pray and hope that mama would also be strong n know that i love her so much! and wait a while longer so that i can help out

i pray and hope that my life would be better and i have other good opportunities out there after my chambering

i pray and hope that i would finish my finals with flying colours

i pray and hope that all my siblings would be successful and we would be rich n live happily ever after

but all i can do is pray n hope...

Allah..help me through this..and i pray that at least i get the first two things that i want, because that is what i want the most now.. amin..

another bad day..

yesterday was another bad day for me.. :) nearly cried at the end of it..but decided against it.i slept instead..

the day start off at 5.50 and i had to wake up in order to get to the Bar Council before 8. thinking that i could beat the jam if i went out at 6.30. while i was getting ready it started to rain...so when i went out to my car i was soaking wet. plus, i have to move my sister's car etc..etc...so, in the end i was wet from head to toe and shivering to death!(im exaggerating..cant u tell? but i was soaked la)

then, start off my journey at 6.30 sharp..to my suprise..there were lots and lots of cars!! and it started to 'jam' after the subang jaya tol and i was stuck!! i was kinda freaking out coz if i dont arrive before 8 the bar council people will lock me up and RM150 would just go down the drain...

so..have to go trough the jam and arrived at the lrt station at 7.30 and raced to buy the tickets and i just missed the train. so then i have to wait another couple of minutes to wait for another train to pasar seni..and around 7.50 i arrived at pasar seni station. as i was saying..it was raining preeetyyyy hard in KL.so..i have to dash across pasar seni and walk in alleys in the rain to get to the bar council.i was more soaked and my stokins were wet and i was preety tired because it was a long run from the lrt station to bar council..plus, i was wearing heels to top it off!! arghh!!

arrived at bar council at 7.58 ok? in the nick of time... so.. the day went out ok.while i was sitting down hearing to one of the bar council's modul i realise that one of my shoe straps 'tercabut' malu sgt..what the hell kan? then i just leave it la..nak wat ape, x ade shoe shops pun nearby..
tengah hari..ha..guess what? the other shoe strap tercabut!! waaAAaaaa..my life cant get any worse. so..have to tebalkan muka dan pakai those hideous shoes all around the bar council..

after the modules, went to jalan masjid india, nak cari shoes yg murah2..end up in mydin and choose a pair of slippers for rm9.00. this is what i call unnecessary expenses. dah la i am really short of money right now, the i have to spend my money on unecessary things..and still people condemn me for being 'boros' when i try my very hardest not to. people look at me as stingy etc..but hey..nak wat cne coz i really dont have the money to splurge and buys thing for anyone more so even for myself. i havent gotten anything for myself since i get my first pay..gile kan?

the, went back home and try to find somewhere cheap for me to eat.end up in hakim and by that time i was utterly exausted! need-to-go-home-NOW..so drove back home and at the front door found out that i lost my keys.. GREAT kan? by then..i was nearly in tears..it have been a long day and now i cant even go into my room. suck kan? so..now i have to wait for my sister to come home to open the door for me..and i guess tomorrow i have to make a new set of keys..another unecessary expenses.. im really sad and down now..plus no money..how can i survive till end of this month? NTAH..i DUNNO...pray to Allah that tomorrow onwards, my days will be better..amin

i guess, when u are short of money u will get overly emotional tak tentu pasal.but thats how i feel now.SO, SUE ME!

THE DAY THAT I CURIK TULANG :)

gile ape tajuk post ni.incriminating!!! huhuuu..

this morning around 7 o'clock, by master called me.i was shocked and bersyukur gile i did'nt answer wif a sleepy stupid 'baru bangun tido voice' heheh MAluuUUuuuu kotTTtt!! he said that he tried calling me yesterday but cant get thru.hehe get this, i did'nt really put my master's num on my mobile, so i dont know his number yg asyik calling me..sooo sorry Mr RK!!!

if u are in a group of my frens you know that i've been complaining non-stop about my salary n claim etc. god..ntah la.kadang2 malu juga nak pinjam org n nak kene byr sikit2 sbb i have to plan my expenses soooOOOoo throughly..here i wanna make a public apology.cewahhhh..hope u guys understand my situation and PLzzz pllZZz plzzz bare with me k? love u guys!

i've nothing really specific to blog about.its just that...um.. i pray that all of this is worth it. i will ask myself everyday, is it worth it? and i try everyday to assure myself that it is :(

maybe some people wont understand it..ntah la.i dont expect people to understand..babling babling..huhuhu..

dah la!! stop it lili with this nonsense. ur gonna survive this period and make lots and lots of moneEeyyy OK?

Lili: ok (hehehe)

check in later :)

can i really do this?

i've been thinking lately... Ya Allah, can i really pull this off?

i mean, apart from the work at the office is getting heavier and my master expects a lot from me.. and the fact that my syariah finals is in less than 2 weeks. and also i have test and test and test for every week starting from early april? and i was thinking to myself..can i really pull this off? can i?

im starting to feel that my life is all jumbled up. i dont really have that much time to 'baring-baring' at home. my mind is just full of things when im at home,work, etc..pressurenyee!!
ok-ok..i should'nt be complaining right?i asked for it. i was the one who wants to pursue this syariah thingy..

so..positive thoughts lili!! huhuu..

and i was thinking of asking for leave to study for finals..but it seems like its impossible.my master just about half a minute ago said that im doing more legal aid work than office work!!! arghhhh!! hate ittt..

i mean its like like i choose to do legal aid.its compulsory ok!! so, dont bite my head of ya?!!
GOD, tlg la weiii..tensionnyeee

okie, check in later la.when im in a better mood..(ckp dlm hati i love my job..i love my job..i love my job.. not!! hahahha)