being a full time mom,wife,daughter and also working full time is really challenging. i have to divide myself into so many selves that sometimes i wonder... can i take a break?
this morning, someone said something to me that makes me break into a thousand pieces. tears just cant stop falling after hearing those words..even now, its painful to think about. no one knows what i am going thru right this moment. taking each day at a time..thinking what tomorrow will bring. am i going to survive this? im working hard..i really do, but does anybody stop and fully understand that im going thru a really really hard phase right now. yeah, i look like im doing ok, but inside its like a thunderstorm.. i dont expect all these people to understand me..its my problem right? who will care?
but i am thankfull that Allah SWT is always beside me and my lil family. when we are going through the hardest time, HE will lend us a hand,even if its not much, but enough for us to move on bit by bit..just wait a little longer..im sure we will be ok.. Gods will.
but..to make such comments..saying out loud my faults of being a mother..subhanallah..i cannot take it. im trying my very best..i give the best of me to my son,nothing less...he is everything to me and what im working for now is for giving him the best in life and future..
whatever it is.. your words really cut me deep inside... i forgive u, but i am hurt..all i can say to you is that.. im trying my best. and if my best is not enough in your eyes, than its ok...
this morning, someone said something to me that makes me break into a thousand pieces. tears just cant stop falling after hearing those words..even now, its painful to think about. no one knows what i am going thru right this moment. taking each day at a time..thinking what tomorrow will bring. am i going to survive this? im working hard..i really do, but does anybody stop and fully understand that im going thru a really really hard phase right now. yeah, i look like im doing ok, but inside its like a thunderstorm.. i dont expect all these people to understand me..its my problem right? who will care?
but i am thankfull that Allah SWT is always beside me and my lil family. when we are going through the hardest time, HE will lend us a hand,even if its not much, but enough for us to move on bit by bit..just wait a little longer..im sure we will be ok.. Gods will.
but..to make such comments..saying out loud my faults of being a mother..subhanallah..i cannot take it. im trying my very best..i give the best of me to my son,nothing less...he is everything to me and what im working for now is for giving him the best in life and future..
whatever it is.. your words really cut me deep inside... i forgive u, but i am hurt..all i can say to you is that.. im trying my best. and if my best is not enough in your eyes, than its ok...
" when i see you standing there, wanting more from me...all i can do is TRY...."
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