10 days

last friday, i went for my routine checkup with my gynea and at that time i've just reached my 36 week a.k.a officially 9 months. small talk yada yada yada..then my gynea ask me to lie down untuk scan the baby and see how the baby is doing. before scanning, my doct tekan2 n picit2 perut i. quite painfull sebab now my tummy tend to get really hard and mmg sakit if u poke. i think theres no more room for the baby to grow anymore..mmg dah xpand to the max hohoho.

anywayyyy..talking about my tummy expanding to the max, as you can see in my last post, i told you about my stretch marks and how itchy and sakit it is. i showed my doct my stretch marks and she said ada infection on it!!! the doct said because my tummy is expanding too fast and that cause the infection.. sbb tu my tummy itchy gile and it burnnsssss sampai i xdpt tdo mlm sbb pedih!! i really really suffered and always wonder "betul ke stretch marks camni punya azab? huuuUUuu sedey sgt". alhamdulillah, my doct pagi cream for my tummy so now im feeling a bit better and less itchy. and i tell you, it takes super HUMAN strength to avoid scratching my stretch marks..and sometimes i lose the battle of not scratching..aiyo..i dah tahap pasrah je sekarang.. sigh*.. ok~ no more thinking and complaining about stretch marks~!

ok, back to my story.

after the doct poke poke my tummy, she said to me.. "hm..i give it a week..hm..okla, 10 days max!" i was like "huh?? what...? (very blur)" then she ignores me and start scanning..ok-ok everything ok. baby ok, position ok. alhamdulillah..then she takes my blood pressure. its quite on the high side.. hm..and she commented that both my feet are puffy n bengkak. before seeing my doct, i did my very 1st CTG and it detected mile contraction..so basically im starting to have contractions~! (which i thought the baby was kicking my tummy by the way!)

so she said that due to my BP, im going to be induced on 9th june 2011.. but i can go into labour anytime before that date. i was shocked~! im like 3 weeks away from my EDD and suddenly the doct tells me that im going to have the baby at any time from that day and i have to "serah diri" on the 9th!! this is too fast. both me and my husband was struck dumb and speechless. my gynae also scheduled me for CTG every 3 days until the 9th to monitor my progress..

so..now im trying to prep myself mentally for this.. i just hope everything will be ok and semuanya selamat and i get to deliver my baby safe and healthy..amin..

since i know about being induced, i tried googling about it.macam2 experience org..ada kata lagi sakit, ada kata kurang sakit etc etc etc. but now, i've come to the point that whatever it is i have to face it. whatever the consequences..i have to face it. how painful it will be i have to face it..now, every labour is different and setiap org ada bahagian masing-masing la kan..? so now i can just pray to Allah untuk permudahkan segala urusan dan berikan yang terbaik for me and the baby..InsyaAllah..Amin..

so..thats my update~.. plez pray for me..im quite scared but trying to be strong..been psyching myself since friday and i hope i will go into labour without even have to be induced..amin