update~

this is blueberry about a month ago..

alhamdulillH..i am now about 3months and 1 week pregnant. i am so relieved to have passed the first trimester..i can now at least breathe a bit more calmly and not panic on every little sign that is alien or weird. hohoho..but i still get panicky sometimes. u see me cool n calm but inside, my heart is beating really fast and sometimes i get so nervous that i have to quietly calm myself..fuhh.. but alhamdulillah..praise to Allah for making everything fine and giving me this wonderful blessing.. :)

i went to the doctor on monday for my monthly checkup. the doctor says everything is ok..the baby is doing fine and i can see the heart is beating through the ultrasound. but this time, we cant really see the baby clearly..the baby keeps moving n being active..so its a good sign. i love u baby~!!

anywayyy.. the doctor checked my blood pressure and immediately says that its on the high side and ask me to refer to a physician after seeing her. but, before i go and see the physician, i must first do the routine blood test and urine test to check for diabetes. so..off i went to the lab to do my blood n urine test with my husband in tow :)

to tell u the truth, i have a "thing" with needles where i am utterly and absolutely scared of needles~!! but, i psyched myself all the way to the lab by saying to myself "lili, ur going to have a baby, so u must be strong n throw away this ridiculous fear of needles that u have ur whole life!!" hahahah it was harddddd..i was super nervous while waiting for my turn. my husband make lame jokes to make me feel relaxed, which worked in a way..hohoho.. so sweet of him tho.

well, when my turn finally came, suprisingly, i was calm n ready to be poked hohoho. the thing is, i must look at my hand while the needle is being inserted so that i can anticipate when the pain will come.. hoho. weird i know. but..i have my own way of dealing with my fears hehehe. so..there i was staring at the stringe and needle poked in my hand and the blood flowing steadily inside. then, its over~! so..not so painful at all. after taking my blood, i am asked to drink this yucky super super sweet glukose drink. a whole mugful of it..yuckkk..i nearly threw up on the lab floor~! hooho..and i was asked to come back in 2 hours to give my urine.

Then, off i went to see the physician. waited for half n hour and finally get to see the physician. the physician checked my blood pressure n eyes and hand. he explained that having high BP is dangerous for both the mother n baby. it could cause the baby being premature and many other things. so..its vital that he control and monitor my BP from the early stage. he was a bit puzzled because when he checked my BP, my BP was not so high. but he still want me to monitor my BP for 2 weeks and then come and see him again. the physician also wants me to do a blood test~!! arghh..again..have to go to the lab and the lab staff poked my other arm.. so now i have 2 plastered arms hehehe. nasib baik x payah drive..if x..lenguh jugak laa kott..~~

then, its time to pay the hospital bills for the day..tettt tettt hohoho. mahal gile..yeap..xpected since its private. buttt...mmg terkejut dgn amountnyee..agak lari jugak la budget for next month ni. nearly nearrllyyyy rm1k. nak pengsan jap. hohoho.yeap..hospital bills aint cheap~! but, i hope everything will go well and xpayah nak g amik amik darah lagi :(

my mom cakap, "tula..now u know macam mana susahnya nak mengandungkan anak ni.." hohoho baik mama..insaf. mmg susah n banyak dugaan. but insyaAllah, with my husband, my mom n dad, and my siblings, i can get through all of this. i cant wait to see u baby..we are all waiting for u :) be safe~! mama loves u~