6th June 2011
went for my routine CTG check up to see if my contractions have started. result was baby ok but still no contraction. BP also ok. but my gynea insist that i must "serah diri" tomorrow which is the 7th of June 2011 instead of the agreed induce date which is on the 9th. me and husband was quite shocked~ yela..both of us x ready yet and our minds were focused on the 9th. sooo..its quite big news. so, we went to my mom's house to tell everybody the news and went home early to get ready for the big day. the doctor asked me to come early morning so we decided to set of to the hospital after solat subuh. that night, mintak maaf dekat my husband for everything and both of us buat solat hajat and taubat..yela, you never know what would happen right? i was super duper nervous but i've set my mind that whatever happens, i will leave it to Allah because only HE can look after me now.
7th June 2011
early morning after subuh prayers, me and husband started our journey to the hospital. by around 8 o clock i was already at the hospital and register for my room etc etc. so i was asked to go straight to the labour room @ level 2. i was quite nervous and my husband held my hand all the way. i was hooked on the CTG machine again and the nurse checked whether baby dah engage belum, but the nurse said the baby baru nak turun n we will wait for the doctor. so..there i was in the labour room psyching myself up for the labour that im going to face and mulut ni never stop baca doa nabi yunus and all other surah that i know. because to to tell you the truth, i was nervous but ready! hehehe.
around 9 o clock my gynea came and check my CTG results and tekan tekan my perut. she then said the baby's head is too big and it would not engage because my pelvic bone is small. so my gynea said the best option is to go for elective c-sect. me and my husband was quite shocked~ my gynea siap suruh my husband stand in front of me and she showed him the baby's head..and my husband said "yup..the baby's head xleh engaged sayang.."
i asked my gynea whether there is any other option but the doct said thats the best option we have and if there is another option, i would surely tell u. so..i numbly said ok and the doctor said to be ready by 2 o clock and that would give ample time to tell the family. after the doctor left me and my husband were quiet for several minutes and then suddenly my mom came in the labour room. i was so relieve to see my mom and i was close to tears explaining my situation and that i have to go through elective c-sect. my mom did ask a couple of questions and what options do i have bla bla bla...i xplained to her and she said "its ok..u can get through this". during this time, my lovely siblings were already on the way to the hospital to see me before i was pushed to the OT. the nurse then put an IV on me and shave me n asked me to change into a hospital gown... it was scary im telling you. ME? the girl who is afraid of needles is going to go through a major surgery?? it was madness!! but i try to be strong for my baby and husband.. my husband held my hand the entire time. the nurse then came in about 11 o clock and said the scheduled c-sect will be at 12.30 and not 2 o clock. soooOOoo..i have less time to prep my self!
about 12 o clock my mom came in again and she said "mama maafkan semuanya..be strong" i felt like crying at that time but i must be strong. i dont want to crumble and be afraid when im pushed into the OT. then @ 12.30.. im pushed out of the labour room and was send to the OT. my husband sent me all the way until the OT but he cannot come in because of hospital procedures. i was put into a room before i was wheeled into the OT..there, mmg segala surah and i even said my syahadah because anything could happen on the operating table and my mouth x berenti baca doa nabi yunus tu..i was then asked several question by one of the OT staff etc etc (standard procedures). but i must say..the staff @ DEMC was very veryyy friendly and they actually helped in putting me at ease facing this c-sect thingy.
i was then wheeled in the OT and i can feel my heart hammering against my rib cage. im scared and nervous. i was greeted my a friendly OT staff that explained all the procedures which is i will be put on epidural..local and they will put a tube into my va jay jay for me to pee because after the operation, i am not allowed to move for 24 hours. then the bius doc came and they started the procedure. i was asked to hug a pillow while the doctor insert the drug into my spine. again..this part was scary and i must say, its the most painful part of the operation.the doctor have to do it twice because the first time x jadi..the women who xplain the procedure to me earlier was there by my side the whole time soothing me and holding my hand. alhamdulillah..i went through it..hohoho didnt realize that i was that strong!! heheh proud of myself :) after the bius kicked in..i could nt feel a thing from my tummy down. the OT staff have to push my legs up and they did the tube business etc etc. quite embaressing because there was 3 male OT staff there to doing the tube thing..sooooo.. no more secrets there!!! but all of them were really really friendly la..they asked me whether im comfortable etc etc..so i felt at ease..
they put a tirai in front of me so i could nt see whats going on with my tummy and they put me on oxigen. after the bius kicked in, i felt like vomitting and the staff's were ready just in case..but alhamdulillah..i didnt vomit. my gynea then started the procedure.. after a few minutes the anesthetist asked my gynea to stop because my blood pressure suddenly dropped very low, maybe i as super nervous kot masetu. my gynae have to stop and calm me down, she said "take deep breaths wan, you are going to see your baby!" so i tried calming down for a bit. after im stabilize, the anesthetist gave a GO and my gynea continued. during that time..i heard azan zohor from masjid shah alam since the hospital is quite near from the masjid. i focussed on that while reciting all sorts of doa...
@ approximately 1.33pm my gynea pulled out my baby...before they pulled out my baby, all 3 male staff pushed my stomach macam really really hard and i was like "what are they doing??" they push hard for about 3 times and then..i heard a voice.. "ehek..ehek.." in my mind i was like.. "is that the baby?" then the doct slapped my baby's butt and hello world!! he cried and cried so loud.. and i cried .. and whispered "my baby's here..." thats the most wonderful moment that words just cannot describe..the doct hand me the baby asking me "can you see what baby is this?" i answered "a boy..hehehe" (sempat gelak padahal masetu my tummy terbuka kottttt). the staff the clean up the baby and send the baby to my husband for him to azan..
Ya Allah.. im so grateful for the blessing you gave me.. im a mommy and im strong to have gone through a major operation!..im proud of myself.. hohoho..
i was then wheeled into the recovery room where i shivered from the after effects of the epidural. but alhamdulillah, i didnt shivered for long..sekejap je kot, then i slept because i felt so exhausted.. i woke up and realize the staff have put a heat blanket on me to keep me warm and the anesthetist was administering morphine..MORPHINE!! for me to ease the pain.hoho..like seriously. the doctor said, when i feel pain, just push this red button and it will push morphine into the IV..so.. after quite some time..im not sure how long, i was wheeled out of the recovery room and i saw my husband outside..the sight of his face..heheh nampak relief sgt.maybe he was worried because he said he waited so long for me to come out! i was brought to my room by that time i still cannot move because of the drugs. and im so xcited to meet my baby!!
then he came..and i just felt like i coulnt let this precious angel go..i want to hug him forever. i would go through all this again..if i have to :)
next post...post c-sect and the PAINNNN~!! ughh...hehehe
ok, Adam wants his milk! mommy love u adam muax muaxxx!
1 comment:
adam zuhair is soooo cute!! we have made a very nice job syg..hehehe..alhamdulillah :)
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