ive been seriously weepy the past 2-3 weeks. things happening arround me doesnt help me either. this is a very difficult time for me as some events have happened which i am not ready to share with u guys. what i think and feel about this matter is for me alone to know and discuss with my husband. i thank Allah everyday for giving me a wonderful and caring husband beside me.. i know for a fact that without him, i would'nt have survived last week. we talked a lot since then.. discussing how do we feel about things.. we even cried together one night while discussing things that bother both of us. for me, the most important thing is that we both understand each other and both of us are in the same level of thinking.. thats what important.
yesterday.. i was crying again. a lot of sadness surrounds me yesterday. i was so mad and my heart could not stop beating so fast all through the night. i could'nt sleep. i was mad and also sad. i woke up with a nightmare and i woke up wanting to cry --- again.i believe things happen for a reason. im trying to push aside this anger and pain i feel so that i can live normally again. i was just starting to cool down from the last episode but suddenly it happened again. its not right..but hey, shit happens. right?
i hope to find my peace someday.. i even think of doing the extreme yesterday..but i just dont have the heart or strength to do it.it drains me to the core of my being. being at war with my feelings is very very tiring. but i cant.. my feelings have been broken and cut into tiny little pieces and im afraid that this feeling of hurt that i feel could not be mend. but i do pray every day that one day i would find peace with all the things that have happened.
i guess this is just one of the symptoms of being pregnant, being weepy all the time...
on a happier note, i can feel blueberry kicking me all the time~! heheee.. i love u baby..please come quick and make mummy happy everyday ok..muax muax
yesterday.. i was crying again. a lot of sadness surrounds me yesterday. i was so mad and my heart could not stop beating so fast all through the night. i could'nt sleep. i was mad and also sad. i woke up with a nightmare and i woke up wanting to cry --- again.i believe things happen for a reason. im trying to push aside this anger and pain i feel so that i can live normally again. i was just starting to cool down from the last episode but suddenly it happened again. its not right..but hey, shit happens. right?
i hope to find my peace someday.. i even think of doing the extreme yesterday..but i just dont have the heart or strength to do it.it drains me to the core of my being. being at war with my feelings is very very tiring. but i cant.. my feelings have been broken and cut into tiny little pieces and im afraid that this feeling of hurt that i feel could not be mend. but i do pray every day that one day i would find peace with all the things that have happened.
i guess this is just one of the symptoms of being pregnant, being weepy all the time...
on a happier note, i can feel blueberry kicking me all the time~! heheee.. i love u baby..please come quick and make mummy happy everyday ok..muax muax
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its all about how we human be rational to each other..n foremost the thing that bonded between u n me syg..luv u so muchh!! :)
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