well..hello there :)

hey..
i know i know..long hiatus~~~ just no mood or idea to write. too much problems drowning me urghhh...financial probs especially .. but, im not going into that now. i just hope HOPE hope..that everything is worth it..all this waiting for the stupid scholarship(stupid but i need u~!) .. i just hope that everything is worth it.

i saw one of my best fren last weekend. she keep asking me why dont i want to practice. my answer is simple..tawar hati. thats it. my working experiences really really put me off.walau bertapa pandai ke or great i was masa degree ke LLB, practicing just drains me to the bone. and i applaud all my frens out there yang still practicing.. hats off guys~!! but..thats a story for another day ok? dont want to dampen my mood :P

so..today have been a really really productive day :)

sudah bayar deposit rumah that me n F will rent after we are married :) hapy happy..got it dirt cheap and its close to HOME :) .... two storey terrace house.. so, i am happy :)

next : already finalize the nikah papers and booked the tok kadhi :) double triple happy :) :) :)
so..i really really feel that this is it~!! i am getting married in less than 2 months~!!

we still have to get a couple of things for our hantaran..and fitting will be next month. wah..overwhelming... xpe xpe. i will get through this~! yeayyy

tu la..update ape je kan orang nak kawen ni, of cos update pasal kawen je.

anywhoosss.. i will write later. just to share with u guys my happy news :)

meh kita doa bersama-sama supaya scholarship ni cepat datang...

AMINNNNNN

down and broke ---- literally

yup.. i am so so so broke. only rm10 in my purse. gile pathetic kan?

i want to work. this scholarship is taking too long. i need to get some moolah fast~! cepat cepattt scholarship woiii :( :( :(

a week down memory lane

Today im having a preety bad cold.. urghhh~!! x larat asyik sneezing~

anyways, this week have been a week that i would like to call a week down memory lane. why? well, because this week ive been spending loads of time in uitm doing stuff, asgmnt etc etc. it really made me feel a pang of longing n it made me miss my varsity days. i really do..i wish i could just stay in that moment. i like staying in kolej melati where i would hang out with my frens n cool roomates. checking out our U's lastest events etc.

during my degree years, i have a really really big crush on this person and i would linger in places that i know he will pass by for hours~!! talk about obsessed~! i mean, just a glimps of that person would surely make my day and i could tell the story to my frens again n again how i saw him etc etc. well u know? the usual girls crush. hehehe..when i think back about all i did, it was really funny n i think to myself how carefree i was and how innocent i was at that time.. hahaha.

on monday, out of the blue i decided to walk from the faculty to melati because my lil sis had my car and she was running a bit late.so..instead of waiting around, i decided to walk. i took the route that i have passed millions of times everyday to class. yeah..u've guess it, the bukit kat cempaka tu huhuhu.but thankfully i was walking downhill, and it was 9.30 at night..so it was not hot or anything. so..there i go walking, just enjoying the night's breeze and the calm night. i walked passed the chempaka building and i think to myself..hm..maybe in 1 year i'll be working here..i got a glimpse of my future. then..i walked down and i passed this little patch of field just beside the cempaka building and i remembered that i met my future husband here.. and the memories of the day that he first came up to me n talk for the first time came flooding in my head. i feel such a sense of happiness there..just walking n looking at places that meant so much to me...i walked on beside the road at perindu and down to delima. i cant remember the last time i actually walked pass that roadin 2 years~! yeah..i remembered i would walk back to college with my frens. it could be anyone..zue,leha,donna,sarah, or anyone who just happens to be in the same class with me..we would talk, laugh n just walk the long n tiring route from the faculty to melati...such wonderfull memories..i wish i could relive each n every one of them in my head :)

and suddenly i started thinking that..im going to the next phase of my life in less than 3 months. im going to marry the man i love with all my heart and i met him here..in that route that ive walked a thousands of times. i am happy... :)

at this moment, i did'nt even know who he was...look, he's staring hehehe.picture taken in late december 2005

FOUR is the number

yeah, this post is like 2 days too late huhuhu.

Last sunday was our 4th anniv being together.. and i was really wondering like..WOW, we've really been through a lot. and this year is our year...we're getting married in june~!! its totally un planned..it just happened...

i have a lot of things so say here but the love, feelings and everything is just ...wow.i cant express it in words..

soo..happy anniv sayang~!! another 3 months 3 days ~! yeayy

Reality Check

today, Fiancee spend the whole day at my house trying and succesfully baiki my mom's laptop. we cooked chicken rice for lunch n had yummy tea snacks ---- i made creamy n delicious Teh tarik huhuhuu...he did'nt pay that much attention to me though, as he is busy n focussed reformatting an all that etc etc...but basically its a good day. a sneak peak perhaps of whats to come...in a couple of month's time...

otw back..we decided to just check out some houses around the area to look for prospective houses for us to rent after getting married. 2 months back, my dad told me that he isn't comfortable n cant sleep at night thinking if i were to live in a condo or apartment and asked me to try and look at terrace houses or any landed property, as long as it isnt a high rise building ---- cute gile kan? terharu kejap. my dad is like that, he is very caring n selalu risaukan safety of his children in his own way.

for instance, when i was in secondary school, i pled my dad to agree to let me go camping at bukit cerakah which was then just 'belakang rumah', as we then live in section 8 shah alam. my dad refused me time n time again. and u guys know what was his alasan? he said "keturunan kita x boleh masuk hutan, nanti kene hempap pokok~!" i was like...huh? really ayah? hehehhe so innocent btol. but come to think of it..it was sooOOoo funny.

anywayyYyyy..back to finding a house part, me n fadhliy look around the area n found some prospective houses, but yet to confirm on the actual rent..so need to find out. one of the questions that keeps bugging me now, is when do u start looking for a house? is now too early or what? have no idea...n i can yet find a time to sit down n discuss with my parents on when is the right time to house hunt :|

after looking at this house n that house, on my way back..i started thinking..hey, im gonna be living with this guy..alone in a couple of months. i wont have my family around anymore...i wont have my dad sitting in the living room watching tv when i come home n mom louging at the sofa. i wont be able to bug my little sister while she is doing her homework. i wont be able to hear my lil bro's unnusual jokes, i wont be able to hear n watch my big sister doing something funny, n i wont be able to laugh at my lil sister while she is being a total drama queen... ----- it really hit me u know. and i suddenly felt a pang of sadness and im afraid of letting go all of that. i will miss them ever so terribly...n my life would change and wont ever be the same again :(

i would surely cry on my wedding for sure....

i LOVE my family

CNY SALE~!!!

i just can go crazy shopping in metrojaya during the CNY weekend ---- which is last week by the way :P

seriously value for ur money... we start of the day by thinking of purchasing our wedding rings at the curve as Habib is having their CNY sale up to 70%~! mmg gile gile la....i pon jadi gile~! huhuhu i know cam typical giler kan phrase i, i mean girls n shopping ----- theres nothing that can go wrong with that statement kan?

anywaysss...me being totally picky in picking my own wedding band...me n fadhliy round and stop by the booth a couple of times. being indecisive. finally i've decided on a ring which is perfect~! beautiful...but guess what? no SIZE arghh nape la tangan i mean jari ini perlu bulat ehem~~ i mean cute huhuhu...and the sales person said they cannot resize it as the ring have a lot of diamonds on it and the diamonds would definitely fall off...so...dengan sedihnye me n fadhliy went to a corner and have a little discussion on what to do...so..since we're already at the curve, we decided to just go and hunt for the other hantaran things which is still pending. we loaded up on bonia and CD items which is sooOoooo cheap, plus we got a rm150 voucher~!! best gile gile ok~!! i actually had my eye on a DKNY watch which is sooooOOooo lawa..and just rm400, but but butttt~!! we can get it for much lesser than that overseas...so..xpe..xpe..wait for APRIL guys~!!

we literally shop till we drop at metrojaya with good bargains which is up to 70% off..who would'nt go crazy eh? so..now almost 70% of our hantaran things are done..the ones left are those that need to be purchased overseas due to a very obvious price difference :) so..we're done with hantaran for now... happy happy :)

fadhliy had officially moved to his new house in kelantan.. so no fretting over what address to put in our wedding invitation.. fuhhh..nasib baik. u see, we were thinking about just sharing our card to save our budget and not overdo on the wedding spending thingy~!! so...now..finalize cards~!!

anyways..not much to update... just had a very fulfilling and lovely weekend :)
catch u guys later :8)

Here with me

yesterday was the worst~!

woke up in the morning and my mom ask me to get ready to go to the hospital to see my aunty who is realy sick..very emotional morning for many of us..the whole clan came to the hospital to see her and to meet up with the doctors and all...well i spare u the details huhu..

by 1 'o clock i have to rush to putrajaya as i have a meeting with a financial consultant..got there at the nick of time and my sister tag along as she has nowhere to go..kesian la jugak kan :P. at 7 'o clock, i came back to my car..guess wut? my car x boleh stat~!! gile gile~! i was freaking out as i have a very important interview on monday morning n have yet to finalize my powerpoint n cerf etc etc..i was thinking --- yeah.. IM DEAD~~~

waited for my cousin to come to jump start the car (my sister turn on the car's radio sampai habis batery for ur info) and by then it is 8.30 and i am still stranded kat putrajaya. jump start the car n the car dah ok..my dad called n ask me to go to the nearest petrol station to isi air betery. i am super duper thankful that my fiancee was there as he was the one yang walked to the petrol station to beli tong petrol untuk isi petrol because at first we thought minyak habis.. tEEttttt..hahaha silap. my hand was already soaked with petrol by the time we realize that its not because the fuel tank was empty.. sheesh~! and right now..i can still smell petrol kat my hands :P

after all that, i drop of the fiancee etc etc, i finally reached home at 11 o'clock and was super duper exausted~! quickly finalize my power point n susun my cerf n sleep like a zombie.

come monday morning....
all i can say is that the interview is VERY very interesting. they ask me like a thousand of questions~!!! i was like..huh...hm...hahahah sampai xtau nak jawab ape~! so funny. and the panel for the scholarship is en basir, mr lingam (deadly questions..as u know guys..macam viva corporate~!), dr zaiton (she's quite nice..as now she's teaching me LRM) n dr baharin (he ask me the Q: why dont u ask ur mom to pay ur fees--- i was like? hm? nooOoo..i need this scholarship, the fees is nearly rm4k~! mati aku nak byr sorg huuu).

but, it was interesting la...i really really hope i will get this TPM thing.. Amin amin..

updates on weddings? for now...tunggu fitting baju n sending my nikah baju to the tailor n buying our hantaran stuffs..etc etc. hm? macam banyakkk la plak hehehe. hey, im a cool bride to be, i dont panic huhu :P anyways..its underway la..all i can say is, for my wedding we got little committees, my family members each will be responsible for one thing like hantaran n bilik pengantin, parking, khemah etc etc.. so..im really thankful for my family.. i love them to death~! everything is covered... alhamdulillah... thanks mama n ayah n wcj n uncle aman n...everybody~!! so..dont scold me if u ask me a question about my wedding n i would not know how to answer..huuu..all i can say is..my wedding will be beautiful, simple n personal :) pray for me guys :)

anyways.. maybe my mom will go overseas to buy some stuff for the wedding...hope all goes well amin.. ;)

now, its time to be totally utterly paranoid while i await for the scholarship results... arghh...cant think..cant think....