Reality Check

today, Fiancee spend the whole day at my house trying and succesfully baiki my mom's laptop. we cooked chicken rice for lunch n had yummy tea snacks ---- i made creamy n delicious Teh tarik huhuhuu...he did'nt pay that much attention to me though, as he is busy n focussed reformatting an all that etc etc...but basically its a good day. a sneak peak perhaps of whats to come...in a couple of month's time...

otw back..we decided to just check out some houses around the area to look for prospective houses for us to rent after getting married. 2 months back, my dad told me that he isn't comfortable n cant sleep at night thinking if i were to live in a condo or apartment and asked me to try and look at terrace houses or any landed property, as long as it isnt a high rise building ---- cute gile kan? terharu kejap. my dad is like that, he is very caring n selalu risaukan safety of his children in his own way.

for instance, when i was in secondary school, i pled my dad to agree to let me go camping at bukit cerakah which was then just 'belakang rumah', as we then live in section 8 shah alam. my dad refused me time n time again. and u guys know what was his alasan? he said "keturunan kita x boleh masuk hutan, nanti kene hempap pokok~!" i was like...huh? really ayah? hehehhe so innocent btol. but come to think of it..it was sooOOoo funny.

anywayyYyyy..back to finding a house part, me n fadhliy look around the area n found some prospective houses, but yet to confirm on the actual rent..so need to find out. one of the questions that keeps bugging me now, is when do u start looking for a house? is now too early or what? have no idea...n i can yet find a time to sit down n discuss with my parents on when is the right time to house hunt :|

after looking at this house n that house, on my way back..i started thinking..hey, im gonna be living with this guy..alone in a couple of months. i wont have my family around anymore...i wont have my dad sitting in the living room watching tv when i come home n mom louging at the sofa. i wont be able to bug my little sister while she is doing her homework. i wont be able to hear my lil bro's unnusual jokes, i wont be able to hear n watch my big sister doing something funny, n i wont be able to laugh at my lil sister while she is being a total drama queen... ----- it really hit me u know. and i suddenly felt a pang of sadness and im afraid of letting go all of that. i will miss them ever so terribly...n my life would change and wont ever be the same again :(

i would surely cry on my wedding for sure....

i LOVE my family

CNY SALE~!!!

i just can go crazy shopping in metrojaya during the CNY weekend ---- which is last week by the way :P

seriously value for ur money... we start of the day by thinking of purchasing our wedding rings at the curve as Habib is having their CNY sale up to 70%~! mmg gile gile la....i pon jadi gile~! huhuhu i know cam typical giler kan phrase i, i mean girls n shopping ----- theres nothing that can go wrong with that statement kan?

anywaysss...me being totally picky in picking my own wedding band...me n fadhliy round and stop by the booth a couple of times. being indecisive. finally i've decided on a ring which is perfect~! beautiful...but guess what? no SIZE arghh nape la tangan i mean jari ini perlu bulat ehem~~ i mean cute huhuhu...and the sales person said they cannot resize it as the ring have a lot of diamonds on it and the diamonds would definitely fall off...so...dengan sedihnye me n fadhliy went to a corner and have a little discussion on what to do...so..since we're already at the curve, we decided to just go and hunt for the other hantaran things which is still pending. we loaded up on bonia and CD items which is sooOoooo cheap, plus we got a rm150 voucher~!! best gile gile ok~!! i actually had my eye on a DKNY watch which is sooooOOooo lawa..and just rm400, but but butttt~!! we can get it for much lesser than that overseas...so..xpe..xpe..wait for APRIL guys~!!

we literally shop till we drop at metrojaya with good bargains which is up to 70% off..who would'nt go crazy eh? so..now almost 70% of our hantaran things are done..the ones left are those that need to be purchased overseas due to a very obvious price difference :) so..we're done with hantaran for now... happy happy :)

fadhliy had officially moved to his new house in kelantan.. so no fretting over what address to put in our wedding invitation.. fuhhh..nasib baik. u see, we were thinking about just sharing our card to save our budget and not overdo on the wedding spending thingy~!! so...now..finalize cards~!!

anyways..not much to update... just had a very fulfilling and lovely weekend :)
catch u guys later :8)

Here with me

yesterday was the worst~!

woke up in the morning and my mom ask me to get ready to go to the hospital to see my aunty who is realy sick..very emotional morning for many of us..the whole clan came to the hospital to see her and to meet up with the doctors and all...well i spare u the details huhu..

by 1 'o clock i have to rush to putrajaya as i have a meeting with a financial consultant..got there at the nick of time and my sister tag along as she has nowhere to go..kesian la jugak kan :P. at 7 'o clock, i came back to my car..guess wut? my car x boleh stat~!! gile gile~! i was freaking out as i have a very important interview on monday morning n have yet to finalize my powerpoint n cerf etc etc..i was thinking --- yeah.. IM DEAD~~~

waited for my cousin to come to jump start the car (my sister turn on the car's radio sampai habis batery for ur info) and by then it is 8.30 and i am still stranded kat putrajaya. jump start the car n the car dah ok..my dad called n ask me to go to the nearest petrol station to isi air betery. i am super duper thankful that my fiancee was there as he was the one yang walked to the petrol station to beli tong petrol untuk isi petrol because at first we thought minyak habis.. tEEttttt..hahaha silap. my hand was already soaked with petrol by the time we realize that its not because the fuel tank was empty.. sheesh~! and right now..i can still smell petrol kat my hands :P

after all that, i drop of the fiancee etc etc, i finally reached home at 11 o'clock and was super duper exausted~! quickly finalize my power point n susun my cerf n sleep like a zombie.

come monday morning....
all i can say is that the interview is VERY very interesting. they ask me like a thousand of questions~!!! i was like..huh...hm...hahahah sampai xtau nak jawab ape~! so funny. and the panel for the scholarship is en basir, mr lingam (deadly questions..as u know guys..macam viva corporate~!), dr zaiton (she's quite nice..as now she's teaching me LRM) n dr baharin (he ask me the Q: why dont u ask ur mom to pay ur fees--- i was like? hm? nooOoo..i need this scholarship, the fees is nearly rm4k~! mati aku nak byr sorg huuu).

but, it was interesting la...i really really hope i will get this TPM thing.. Amin amin..

updates on weddings? for now...tunggu fitting baju n sending my nikah baju to the tailor n buying our hantaran stuffs..etc etc. hm? macam banyakkk la plak hehehe. hey, im a cool bride to be, i dont panic huhu :P anyways..its underway la..all i can say is, for my wedding we got little committees, my family members each will be responsible for one thing like hantaran n bilik pengantin, parking, khemah etc etc.. so..im really thankful for my family.. i love them to death~! everything is covered... alhamdulillah... thanks mama n ayah n wcj n uncle aman n...everybody~!! so..dont scold me if u ask me a question about my wedding n i would not know how to answer..huuu..all i can say is..my wedding will be beautiful, simple n personal :) pray for me guys :)

anyways.. maybe my mom will go overseas to buy some stuff for the wedding...hope all goes well amin.. ;)

now, its time to be totally utterly paranoid while i await for the scholarship results... arghh...cant think..cant think....

laging...laging..

yeah..im slow..slow..huhuu

last week wast a full week for me. went for the kursus kawen at JAIS which was great. seriously~! for u guys yang thinking going to private places nak wat kursus n pay more, the answer is x payah la. just go to the one yang JAIS buat, best, lawak n x mengantuk (suprisingly). i started the morning thinking that..hm.. im gonna be sleepy the whole time org tu ceramah, but i was wrong. i enjoyed it~! plus, i get to spend some time with the fiancee..hehehe. HAPPY~~~

i also sent my car for service..this one is sooOoo long overdue. n i had to pay rm400 for it~!...owh..melayang duit..im officially broke now. huhuu..dah le tgh tanam anggur..so..at that time i was thinking that hey, i should go out n find a job PLZ~! hahaha baru la tersedar. but then, alhamdulillah..last monday i got a call from the faculty, n voila~! i've got an interview next monday.huUuu..goosebumps goosebumps...tatuttt.... pray for me guys..

in the interview i have to teach for 10mins...so, now dalam process buat slide. just doing something simple..ADR. so, hope that i can do it n get my TPM scholarship.. amin.. (hope hope hope)

last week, i also spend some time with the fiancee to buy by hantaran handbag. love it btw~! tq sayang...suppose this weekend nak pegi hantaran hunting again..but with the interview n all..i x think i want to go out. so lot to read up...so, we'll see....

oh yeah, 1 thing i wanna share with u guys, 1 thing that i thought is very interesting that ive picked up from the kursus kahwin. the ustaz remind us that for whatever reason.. never go to bed mad at ur other half..hold hands before u sleep..yeah, maybe we should practice that kan? sometimes we are so mad that we dont care what our love one is thinking or feeling, the only thing we want is to hurt them n make them feel what we are feeling.i guess, at the end of the day..forgiveness is the key.. ok. i x kawen lagi kot..huhuhu. only that a lot of what the ustaz said makes me think about a lot of things.. i think that after the kursus kawen i am a better person. i mean both of us try to make the best of everything..and i hope everything will go well until june Insyaallah..

i also want to say tq from the bottom of my heart to this 1 person who works very hard night n day for the family... u r really a true superwomen..and i love u so much and thank u for every single thing that u have done... i love u..tq..

k, will update on the interview..erk~! pray for me guys... :)

Mini reunion

last night i went to zack's bertandang n i literally think it was a kinda mini reunion~! everybody was there xpecially the LLB 2Bians (hehehe funny la this word). it was so great to see them all~! and everybody is getting married this year. n guess what? i think i share the same weeding date with at least 4 of my frens~! hehehehe..yeah..well... benda yang baik kan? i dont mind sharing the same wedding date with my frens. yang mane berkesempatan pergi tu alhadulillah la kan.. :)

anyways, i think after dah habis blaja n everybody going their own ways ni, the only time that we can meet up ramai-ramai is during weddings. dont u guys agree with me? yeah..so more n more weddings plz~!

owh..for those b2b, u guys nak good bargain n shop for hantaran ke ape u guys can try the SOGO aniversary sale..its on now. so..nak beli perfume or whatever, the time is NOW~! hehehe..

last night, a couple of my frens asks me about my preparation.. i dunno how to answer~! boleh x? ntah..right now its not actually moving..hantaran is being settled bit by bit..catering n pelamin are all settled..ntah la..everything is going slowly n smoothly... but i cant wait to get married~! looking at zack's wedding which is soo beautiful n u can see how much they are in love with each other. so..i think thats my aim. my wedding will be simple but beutiful. full of lourrrrvvveee huhu..ok. stop.dah.berangan

and i am sooOoo terharu with my family. all of them are offering to help for the reception which is so so sweet..i love u guys. tggu feb k? we go all out by then..i think i want to go n have a day out with the cuzzies to look for my bertandang dress.. can ah? january is actually kumpul duit time for me n fadhliy. pray that all goes well ya? amin...

yeah..my ramblings..this post is jumping from 1 topic to the other. sorry guys~! so much to say but xde idea. check in later k?

ps: hi mr ISKANDAR~!

lazy wednesday~~~

well..not so lazy laa

today im going to settle a couple of things...pay off my car n fetch my lil sis's spects etc etc.and i have kak zai's class at 6.30.. so..while waiting for my dad, i guess i just blog a little.

well, yesterday i've received an invitation from my mom's financial planner to come to his seminar. my mom is very very keen on me going as i will be getting married in june and she wants me n F to have a strong financial backup and make sure that we can buy our own house after one year of marriage. insyaallah..i think we can do it~!

so...thats one our our plans after marriage. we havent started looking for houses yet..maybe we will rent somewhere near my house as here is cheaper and the houses are new. last time i checked, to rent a house near here is about rm300-400~! cheap kan?~! thats one of the ways that we plan to save money as only the both of us is going to be living there, so what the point in spending rm800-rm1k for just renting a house? while u can bayar the monthly installment of ur own house with that money? so..thats some of the things that my parents talk about when we discuss about my future. i think what my parents said was very very true and me n F will try to find a cheap house to live in maybe for 1 year..then buy our own house :)

to tell u the truth, i am sooooOoo bad with money~! i dont have any savings and i will finish up all my salary or ptptn or whaetever by the end of the month or semester. so..having a financial planner is good..maybe i can dicipline myself more and save more money for my future...

wedding wise, nothing new.. nothing is moving,..hehhe. i hope by next month everything will be up and running..

oh, and my mom ask me to write a list of things i will need after getting married, like house hold appliances etc etc..so...now its making a list time~!

check in later :)

its really happening~!

hey..

everything i read now is about wedding.plus, one of my course mates just got married last friday and from the pictures i know it was very beautiful and i just can feel the love between them both~! at the same time makes me sooOoooo cant wait for mine~!!! HEHEH E

well.. not to say that mine would be as lovely n beautiful as theirs..but for me, each and every bride to be have their own dreams on how their wedding would be...so do i. but mine is not very specific so to speak. as i am very very grateful as my family especially mom n dad giving me this wedding. i thank Allah everyday that i dont get head ache and feel stressful as i know my wedding will be the same as my engagement where everybody will pitch in. isnt having a lovely n understanding family beautiful? i am SO lucky to have each and every single one of them. my family n WCJ and also my aunties from malacca..i know they will come and pitch in :)

i also read one of my other course mate's blog who will be getting married around the same time as i am..wow~! dah banyak siap preparation u zaza~! zaza, i tiru ur post sikit2 tau hahaha wishing u all the best :) as for me...

pelamin and baju are settled..only the baju nikah that needs to be send to the tailor and also baju for his side is still not decided

catering done --- yeay~!

hantaran --- we're working on it kan sayang? haa

phototgrapher --- the fiancee gonna sort that out for me :)

nikah n sanding will be held at my house..in puncak alam on 5th June 2010

his side will be in kelantan on 19th June 2010

favours --- no idea yet

cards --- not yetTTt..but soon..

yeah..thats all that i can think of.. for now.. so everything is ok kot...

anyways.. back on the whole wedding topic. i really cant wait to be married to him... i think its because all the wedding exposure ive been getting plus the beautiful pictures from my course mate wedding that makes me feel this way~! hahahahaha

anyways..enough~! stop day dreaming Lili~! ur time is coming sooOooon..

pray for me guys..n keep me sane for another ..hm..4 months? plus minus? :)