Out and about

phew..hectic week..well make it month for me. been facing the exams for 3 weeks now and the last KILLER (i might add) paper is yet to come. usul fiqh is this sunday and i baru baca main2 gitu. xla serious sgt..pon..okla...isk!! phycho!! tibe2 takut plak! hahaha

last week, i missed a lot of programs especially family related ones. i feel couped up and i have no contact with human life except for my family and bf hahah (exagerating..i knowww) hahaha

whatever it is..its what i want to do and sacrifices have to be made.so what kan? nak hidup senang kena la ada pengorbanan sikit kan? so..whatever i can give..well take it!! :)

at the office, work is piling up as usual,apart from this High court trial in KB on the 20 n 21 may, i have to attend a divorce matter at the KL syariah court next friday. interesting but still scary.the husband is violent, so we have to ask for the police assistance to keep the wife safe.so..i pray to Allah that everything wiil go according to plan ya? Amin..

also, Mr. F is going away AGAIN..and this time im not sure where's he planning to settle. i pray that he will get the Masters offer..so he can further and pursue his dream of being a lecturer and be near me :) so..im kinda sad on that note..but still xnak pk lagi.sbb he promisd to come for my convocation, so its a plus and i am sooOOooo loking forward to it.

as the readers can see.. i've put up a countdown..on how many more days will i finish my chambering..hahahha letak countdown baru nampak clear sket kannn. soooo..im still counting the days, the minutes and the seconds..its ticking u know..and it just wont go fast enough. but man, to think of it, there's stil a lot for me to do!! arfghhh..have to sit for the ethics test and have to apply for exemption for BM exams.MAN!! gile complicated!! aiyooo...

my mom n dad is going to KB tomorrow for alternative medicine..hurm, as not many people know, i try to keep my feelings bottled up. i dont want to talk bout it. maybe i dont want to face the reality..but hey..i just dont want to talk bout it. hm..i pray that perjalanan mama n ayah will go safely and smoothly.n ayah will get better..amin..

check in later :) :(

pray..

patience..

i pray and hope that Ayah would be fine and strong because i love u sooo much Ayah!

i pray and hope that mama would also be strong n know that i love her so much! and wait a while longer so that i can help out

i pray and hope that my life would be better and i have other good opportunities out there after my chambering

i pray and hope that i would finish my finals with flying colours

i pray and hope that all my siblings would be successful and we would be rich n live happily ever after

but all i can do is pray n hope...

Allah..help me through this..and i pray that at least i get the first two things that i want, because that is what i want the most now.. amin..

another bad day..

yesterday was another bad day for me.. :) nearly cried at the end of it..but decided against it.i slept instead..

the day start off at 5.50 and i had to wake up in order to get to the Bar Council before 8. thinking that i could beat the jam if i went out at 6.30. while i was getting ready it started to rain...so when i went out to my car i was soaking wet. plus, i have to move my sister's car etc..etc...so, in the end i was wet from head to toe and shivering to death!(im exaggerating..cant u tell? but i was soaked la)

then, start off my journey at 6.30 sharp..to my suprise..there were lots and lots of cars!! and it started to 'jam' after the subang jaya tol and i was stuck!! i was kinda freaking out coz if i dont arrive before 8 the bar council people will lock me up and RM150 would just go down the drain...

so..have to go trough the jam and arrived at the lrt station at 7.30 and raced to buy the tickets and i just missed the train. so then i have to wait another couple of minutes to wait for another train to pasar seni..and around 7.50 i arrived at pasar seni station. as i was saying..it was raining preeetyyyy hard in KL.so..i have to dash across pasar seni and walk in alleys in the rain to get to the bar council.i was more soaked and my stokins were wet and i was preety tired because it was a long run from the lrt station to bar council..plus, i was wearing heels to top it off!! arghh!!

arrived at bar council at 7.58 ok? in the nick of time... so.. the day went out ok.while i was sitting down hearing to one of the bar council's modul i realise that one of my shoe straps 'tercabut' malu sgt..what the hell kan? then i just leave it la..nak wat ape, x ade shoe shops pun nearby..
tengah hari..ha..guess what? the other shoe strap tercabut!! waaAAaaaa..my life cant get any worse. so..have to tebalkan muka dan pakai those hideous shoes all around the bar council..

after the modules, went to jalan masjid india, nak cari shoes yg murah2..end up in mydin and choose a pair of slippers for rm9.00. this is what i call unnecessary expenses. dah la i am really short of money right now, the i have to spend my money on unecessary things..and still people condemn me for being 'boros' when i try my very hardest not to. people look at me as stingy etc..but hey..nak wat cne coz i really dont have the money to splurge and buys thing for anyone more so even for myself. i havent gotten anything for myself since i get my first pay..gile kan?

the, went back home and try to find somewhere cheap for me to eat.end up in hakim and by that time i was utterly exausted! need-to-go-home-NOW..so drove back home and at the front door found out that i lost my keys.. GREAT kan? by then..i was nearly in tears..it have been a long day and now i cant even go into my room. suck kan? so..now i have to wait for my sister to come home to open the door for me..and i guess tomorrow i have to make a new set of keys..another unecessary expenses.. im really sad and down now..plus no money..how can i survive till end of this month? NTAH..i DUNNO...pray to Allah that tomorrow onwards, my days will be better..amin

i guess, when u are short of money u will get overly emotional tak tentu pasal.but thats how i feel now.SO, SUE ME!

THE DAY THAT I CURIK TULANG :)

gile ape tajuk post ni.incriminating!!! huhuuu..

this morning around 7 o'clock, by master called me.i was shocked and bersyukur gile i did'nt answer wif a sleepy stupid 'baru bangun tido voice' heheh MAluuUUuuuu kotTTtt!! he said that he tried calling me yesterday but cant get thru.hehe get this, i did'nt really put my master's num on my mobile, so i dont know his number yg asyik calling me..sooo sorry Mr RK!!!

if u are in a group of my frens you know that i've been complaining non-stop about my salary n claim etc. god..ntah la.kadang2 malu juga nak pinjam org n nak kene byr sikit2 sbb i have to plan my expenses soooOOOoo throughly..here i wanna make a public apology.cewahhhh..hope u guys understand my situation and PLzzz pllZZz plzzz bare with me k? love u guys!

i've nothing really specific to blog about.its just that...um.. i pray that all of this is worth it. i will ask myself everyday, is it worth it? and i try everyday to assure myself that it is :(

maybe some people wont understand it..ntah la.i dont expect people to understand..babling babling..huhuhu..

dah la!! stop it lili with this nonsense. ur gonna survive this period and make lots and lots of moneEeyyy OK?

Lili: ok (hehehe)

check in later :)

can i really do this?

i've been thinking lately... Ya Allah, can i really pull this off?

i mean, apart from the work at the office is getting heavier and my master expects a lot from me.. and the fact that my syariah finals is in less than 2 weeks. and also i have test and test and test for every week starting from early april? and i was thinking to myself..can i really pull this off? can i?

im starting to feel that my life is all jumbled up. i dont really have that much time to 'baring-baring' at home. my mind is just full of things when im at home,work, etc..pressurenyee!!
ok-ok..i should'nt be complaining right?i asked for it. i was the one who wants to pursue this syariah thingy..

so..positive thoughts lili!! huhuu..

and i was thinking of asking for leave to study for finals..but it seems like its impossible.my master just about half a minute ago said that im doing more legal aid work than office work!!! arghhhh!! hate ittt..

i mean its like like i choose to do legal aid.its compulsory ok!! so, dont bite my head of ya?!!
GOD, tlg la weiii..tensionnyeee

okie, check in later la.when im in a better mood..(ckp dlm hati i love my job..i love my job..i love my job.. not!! hahahha)

betul?

ok..ok..ok...my birthday had passed and long gone..BUT leaving with sweet memories k? im super duper bz at work for the past two weeks...x sempat main internet pown..sekarang pown curi2..HUhuuuuu :( so..im curik2 updating my blog!1 hahahha...so,lets talk what my birthday says about moi...

January

Stubborn : Duhhhh..sgt2.plus, egoistical(is that a word? EGO la..)

hard-hearted : keras ke hatiku ini? cam lembut n cepat nangis je..sometimes bleh la..susah nak cakap sorry(comments from others :P)

Ambitious and serious: yup..people tend to think im a tad tOooo serious and im no fun at all..chet!!! NO ok? im very ambitious and serious coz i know what i want and im not afraid to go get it(with motivation from my love ones la..of coz!)

Loves to teach and be taught : hm..yeah.i like to help frens wth their studies and now im chambering..so of coz la..i often wish my brain is a sponge so i could suck in alLll of my master's talent hehehe (gile ganas!)

Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses : Regretfully..yep, its true. i always look at other people's flaw and weakness and make fun of it. BAD i know...but i do it just for the sake that its funny and not actually meaning every word i say. ok la..im not xplaining myself, for those who knows me..knows what im taking about kan?

Likes to criticize : YEP...true again. i tend to criticize to the extend that i "bebel"..my family n Mr. F knows what im talking about..hehehe sowi guys..i know..but just cant help it!! u guys love me anyways right?

Hardworking and productive : i like to think so...hehehhe yeah..when i want to be i can be really hardworking and the productive part..hm..yeah, maybe hehehe

Smart, neat and organized: yepp..im super neat and i tend to be psychotic about cleaness.im really organize..thats why people like to pinjam my notes.ntah..these traits would make ur life easier dont u think? but, it drives my family crazeeeee n Mr. F too!!

Sensitive and has deep thoughts : im very sensitive...deep thoughts? yeah..sometimes very far-fetched thoughts :)

Knows how to make others happy : try very hard too..

Quiet unless excited or tensed: yep...:) but once i get to know u..im all over the place n cant stop talking

Rather reserved: yeap..im cool hehhe.ask norzaliza & partners

Highly attentive: yeah.. i like to think so :)

Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds: HA!! spot on!! dont get sick too often but i often get colds a.k.a sneeze a LOT

Romantic but has difficulties expressing love: sometimes...yeah..but the xpressing love thing..maybe..

Loves children : YUP

Loyal: VERYYYY :) (Mr F?)

Has great social abilities yet easily jealous: hehehe yup!! jelousy is my most awful trait!! great social abilities? hm..tgk tempat, org n mood(penting ni)

Very Stubborn and money cautious: stubborn...yeap..of course.money concious?..um..answers anyone???tetTttt..x think so.my mom n bf thinks im the boros'est' person in the world..huhuu..sowi, u got that wrong hehehe

so..is all this true? yeah..some are reallt spot on..but some not so very..hehe anyways, i had fun!! comments anyone? ;)

Long overdue

hey..
um..i know this post is soOOoooo long overdue. soo..updates!

short cALL :)

on the 3rd of march, i went to the Mahkamah Jalan duta for my short call. it was somewhat 'kelam kabut'. as firstly...i arrived quite late (janji kul 7.45 kat lrt tapi sampai kul 8) huhuuu and the line nak masuk tren gler panjang!!! Pn. J cakap, that was unusual as usually xla ramai orang cam tu (saje nak sabotaj my short call kot!! heheh paranoid gler) and my short call starts at 8.30..so i was thinking..'GREAT..im going to be super duper late..just what i need huh~~' so..yep..i was late.arrived at court around 8.50!! freaking out as me n Pn J cant find which court we're suppose to go (GREAT kan?!! arghhh) and Pn. J keep saying maybe the judge would postpone my short call as i was late!!! arghhhh double arghhhhhHH... :(

we went up and down..up and down..the stairs and still cant find which court im suppose to be in!!..so after like 20 minutes of searching and asking everybodyyYyyy..finally jumpa!! and it was about 9.20 la by that time.totally freaking out and breathing hard (sbb lari sane sini heheh) masuk court and terus g depan jumpe court interpreter..

thank god, the court interpreter was very understanding...and she checked my papers to make sure that all are in order. so..everything went great after that. short call was done in chambers and some of my frens were there too as we all have the same short call dates :)

THE JUDGE WAS VERY SERIOUS AND SHE KEEP FLIPPING MY PAPERS...i was kinda freaked. before going into the judge's chambers, Pn. J said that "lili kena ready la, takut judge x puas hati ape-ape. be alert to answer the judge's Q"... SO..THE JUDGE IS FLIPPING AND FLIPPING HERE AND THERE AND i was getting ready to be bombarded with questions that i dont know the answer huHuuuu..after a while and more flipping of pages, the judge just say 'perintah seperti yang dipohon' .. PHEW!! selamat!! and i was really happy yeayYyy!! i am now..a half qualified lawyer. 6 months to go!! cant wait!! hehehhe

so..after my short call..my master starts to bombard me with more heavier works. i have to attend meetings with client in sunway and belajar 'marketing' la skettt huhUU..and after the meeting (9-4 o'clock ok!) we went for lunch and i was the only girl or i can say women *wink..wink* there.so..they started to talk about married life and bedrooms stories and i was ABSOLUTELY horrified!! whyyYyyyyy hehehhe eventhough the stories are juicy (ehem!) its really akward hearing about ur master's sex life right?? so..got thru lunch and stop by the office and surf..ya la..sampai office nak dekat kul 5..cam malas nak wat keje..heheh alasan!

so..now im working on this BOC(bill of cost) listing out correspondences..boring but challenging.got to check on witness statements and review an affidavit in reply..so..the work is building up.my master is actually planning to give me a few files for me to do on my own..which is a bit scarYyyy but..ok la.im up for it!! i pray that i wont do any major mistakes!! wahhh the PPrresuuUUreee..

ok..enough rantings for one day..cant wait to go out for dinner tonite!! yeayy..kene save la tapi..cheque clear this thursday and believe it or not, i have written down this whole budget thingy..so.. few debts due..gotta pay all that off..to keep peace of mind :)

and i am officially THANKING each and everyone that had lend me or give me $$$ in my time of need..no names would be posted.you guys know who u are..thank YOU and love u guys soo MUCH muchhhh..and not forgetting mama and ayah, for giving me pocket $$ even though i have my salary..WAaaaaa sedey la..i promise and try my best to not mintak duit blanja from u after my paycheck clear this thursday..

lili!! u kena blaja bersusah-susah.susah sendiri xpe, jangan susahkan org lain!!k, love u guys loaDDddsss mwah!

tooDLEesS ;)